We all have moments in life when the only wise option is to change. The notion of change can be bittersweet, thankfully I acquired a penchant for the taste later on in life.
First thing I faced in order to come to peace with the changes going on in my life was to awaken myself to a new reality.
Sometimes, like getting up in the morning, a sense of change can be challenging to deal with internally, externally and existentially.
As I rose, I began to notice a new renaissance.
Overwhelming at first, but beautiful and magnificent.
Everyday, I would choose to take on the challenge to be a better person – for myself. I decided to shatter the negative stigma behind selfishness.
That change came to be cause there would just be days of exhaustion wherein ten hours of sleep would not be enough to charge the batteries of my energy. I would wake up tired and lethargic. In introspection, I would wonder what was wrong with me.
Later on, I realized it was because I was living to serve others more than myself. I was seeking validation from family, acceptance from strangers and looking for love in all the wrong places.
Living such a life can be a truly exhausting experience. But it was my choice and I decided to make a new one. The new option was to rise above the clutter of my mind, listen to my heart, and seek the purpose of my soul.
Challenging is an understated description of the journey towards rebirthing.
Blood. Sweat. Tears. Soul. Time. Those are the payments for change.
You see, in the cocoon of my mind, I have an idealized version of myself. And in the presence of time, I have yet to achieve that me I yearn to become. The verb of the journey began when I challenged myself to prove I love myself, everyday.
In loving myself, I began to love whatever surrounded me because I saw it as a gift of time. And in time, the same moments are highly unlikely to happen again – so I chose to enjoy time.
Whether I found myself in solitude or with company, grieving or joyful, in bliss or in pain.
I just embraced the complexity of my trinity and let another form of me takeover.
I believe that in each rebirth, great lessons are accumulated to benefit ourselves in time.
I set to work with a limitless mindset, meaning I decided to believe I’m possible.
I sought the courage to blossom unabashedly.
Models: Chrystalle & Tamiya (Elite Manila)
HMUA: Mong Amado
Stylist: Maura Rodriguez
Special thanks to Candice Arboleda for the couture and Pineapple Lab!